I came across this quote whilst browsing on Pinterest and it really struck a cord with me. The other day I was checking my twitter followers on crowdfire (as all good bloggers do) when I got a notification that one of my real life friends had unfollowed me.
Feeling a little bit confused I headed over to facebook to check to see if my friend was still on there and I was saddened to see that I had been unfriended.
Normally my 1st reaction would have been to contact her and ask the reason why … I am a spur of the moment girl and usually react before I can think straight. On this occasion however I stopped and took stock of things and realised that it didn’t matter.
I finally have found inner peace … and felt inspired to write this post.
” I don’t really know why you decided to cut me out of your life. I can only imagine you read my latest blog post and decided that I was writing about you. Maybe I was … maybe I wasn’t … you never gave me the chance to explain.
Being diagnosed with a life threatening illness does all sorts of crazy things to you. It makes you want to hide away from the world. It makes you tell people that you are ok when really you aren’t. It makes you stop replying to text messages … become jealous when you see people out living their lives and you are lying on your sofa in pain wondering where your life is headed and having all sort of crazy irrational thoughts at 3am sobbing.
I could call you out and say that I was there for you when things in your life were tough but I won’t. As a friend I thought you would know that I am not good at asking for help and admitting when things are tough but I was wrong and you know what? I am ok with that.
I wish you well in your life … I know you have struggled and I admire you for the person you have became. Hopefully one day I too will overcome my struggles both physically and mentally.
I am getting there day by day ….