RIP Benji … Running Free at Rainbow Bridge

November 14, 2017
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Well hello there everyone … I can’t believe how long it has been since I last blogged. So much has happened in such a few months that I don’t even know where to start!

Well technically that is a lie … There was one major event that completely floored me …

On the 19th of June my gorgeous Benji gained his angel wings. For those of you who are new to the blog Benji was my little furbaby and he was 18 years old and unfortunately old age and arthritis finally caught up with him.

Benji came to us from one of the SSCPA rescue centers in Glasgow 17 years ago and I fell in love. I still lived at home when we rescued him and right from the get go he became my dog. He slept in my room and he adored me as much as I adored him. When I bought my 1st flat there was no question that he was coming to live with me.

Benji seriously has been through every life crisis I have ever been through in my adult life. Whilst he could not physically offer words of comfort he was there with his wet nose and doggy kisses to help take the pain away.

It can be hard to explain to someone who has never had a pet how utterly devastating it is when you have to say goodbye. To have to say goodbye to your best friend who will leave a massive paw print shaped hole in your life.

As it was an emergency situation we had to take him along to our local PDSA Hospital and I have to say the staff were amazing. They were respectful and treated Benji with the utmost dignity and did not make me feel like a crazy woman for balling my eyes out and not wanting to leave him. My mum and Mr Sparkles came along with me and it was such a relief to have their support.

It is only now that I can finally start talking about him and sharing memories and laughing at all the silly and annoying  things that he would get up to.

In August Mr Sparkles and I moved home and apart from being so stressful it was also therapeutic. It gave me something to focus on with all the packing but being in a different house it meant that I was not always expecting to see Benji behind the door when we came home.

Although Benji is physically not here we have filled the house with lots of little memento’s  and pictures and I have his ashes on my bedside table. The PDSA offer a cremation service but they do not cremate animals individually. When I heard this I knew that we had to find someone who would be able to cremate Benji as I wanted him and him alone. The thought of little bits of him being swept up and given to other pet owners was just too much to think about. Googling lead us to find a local pet crematorium and they staff there was just lovely.

Just before Benji passed away the lovely people at Webbox had kindly sent Benji a box full of goodies. Sadly Benji never got to enjoy them so we donated them to the SSPCA rescue centre where we originally got him from. It seemed fitting to be able to give a little something back to them for all the other dogs to enjoy.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this post, I am sure you can understand that it has not been easy to write. I hope to try and start easing myself back into the blogging world.

Have you ever suffered the loss of a pet? Do you have any coping strategies to share?


  • Debbie

    November 14, 2017 at 4:20 pm

    Hi Nikki, I am so sorry for your loss. Reading your post brought a lump to my throat. Losing a pet is the one bad thing about having one. Last week it was a year since we said goodbye to our old German shepherd and we still miss her. I even catch myself calling one of our other dogs her name as he’s started sitting where she did. We must remember the good times and the life we gave our pets.

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    1. Nicola

      November 15, 2017 at 8:42 pm

      Thank you so much Debbie … That means alot xx

  • Elise Cohen Ho

    November 15, 2017 at 11:26 pm

    I am very sorry for your loss. Sadly, our kitty is sick and rather old. I know his time with us will come to an end sooner rather than alter. It is something I try to not to dwell on.

  • Super Busy Mum

    November 16, 2017 at 9:45 am

    Oh my goodness…poor pooch! 🙁 I am so sorry for your loss. x

  • Jenny

    November 16, 2017 at 7:06 pm

    That’s so sad to read but it sounds like you had an amazing time together.
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  • Gareth Torrance

    November 17, 2017 at 7:59 am

    I’m sorry for your loss. I remember how it felt when my cat died as a child… I’m glad you had a great time together though.
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  • Linda

    November 17, 2017 at 9:19 pm

    I’m sorry for your loss and understand how you feel. I lost my cat, Samson, quite a few years ago now but he was a real member of the family. Animals have their own unique personalities, don’t they.

  • Nayna Kanabar

    November 17, 2017 at 10:12 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss, and its always hard to lose some one so dear. You have got some beautiful memories to cherish which will always remain with you.
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  • Melissa

    November 18, 2017 at 12:46 am

    So sorry to hear about the loss of your precious Benji. I’ve had dogs all my life and have had my share of heartbreak over the loss of several dogs. Sending hugs ?

  • Charli

    November 18, 2017 at 8:16 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Dogs are such loving, caring, and supportive members of the family and I know you’ll miss him terribly.
    C x

  • Amanda

    November 20, 2017 at 1:05 am

    Reading this brought tears to me eyes! I’m so sorry for your loss. I know exactly what you are going through having been through it twice now. It’s so sad but It you will always have the fun memories of Benji x
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